Want
The Game Developer’s Conference is starting today, and I’m not there. I haven’t yet managed to reach the heights of either profitability or notoriety that make attending practical, so I have to sit out for now. It’s not a disaster,…
Category Personal
Clay
I keep having trouble writing. I’m dismayed at how many posts I’m writing premised on the situation that I’m having a hard time writing, even if each approaches it a bit differently, even if each day’s problem is its own.…
Okay
It will be okay. If I don’t make this one post, it will be okay. If I don’t work on my game today, it will be okay. I have to keep reminding myself. I have to keep telling myself over…
Scene
Either everyone is hounding me for the things that only I can offer or everyone’s being nice because they feel sorry for me. Either I can’t find time to work on the thing I want to work on because there…
Blank Page
Fuck it, writing is impossible. All of the words I have are either dumb and self-indulgent or dumb and overdramatic or dumb and untruthful or some combination of those. I’m not sure what my point is, I am increasingly uncertain…
EverEnding DevBlog 71: Nothing To See Here
I really don’t have a lot to say. This week has been entirely spent on slowly writing up and polishing a big chunk of back story. It’s still not quite in a place where I feel comfortable posting it, and…
The Observed Life
Today was a strange day. Today we lost something, we lost a great talent. And yes I know that he was a stranger to me and yes I know that there are people dying everywhere, but still. Good night, Mr…
Life in the Problem Machine
As I’ve been maintaining this blog, the focus of my posts seem to have shifted a bit. I’ve been drifting further and further away from the study of what games express, how they express it, and the limitations of our…
Caffeine Interlude
I’m taking a break from caffeine. I end up having to do this every 6-12 months as it gradually loses all effectiveness and I start having to drink unhealthy amounts of it just to get through an average day. At…
Authority
There are a lot of things I don’t feel qualified to talk about. I don’t have a graduate degree, so what insight do I really have into any issues of mathematics or engineering? I haven’t worked as a game designer…